Reflections

I sometimes look back on my life and wonder... why has this not happened? why has that not happened?

Really I had a difficult time from being early 20s to early 30s. Really a decade lost in the wilderness.

Of course I worked, had friends, had relationships, traveled, but I was going through a lot of pain, misery and stress.

It has taken a good 10 years for me to understand myself better, to accept myself better to be the person I want to be.

Today I more optimistic about the future.

I feel I can plan years in advance.

I am pretty certain about my job prospects.

I am pretty certain that I can save money for a holiday and even retirement.

In actual fact it is a good challenge. I am looking forward to it.

I have time now to recover, re-balance my desire and motivation.

Top on some skills etc.

I feel good. Perhaps it takes courage to feel good. Perhaps I need to find this courage now.